Artist:  Luis Royo

Estranged
By: JoAnna Martin

As the fish swim around in the sea,
Unlike me they are worry free.
As the waves break up upon the shore,
I'm uncertain of things forever more.
I love you.  Do you feel the same?
If you don't then who's to blame?
Is it me or something I did?
Or is it you, a skeptical trait you hid? 
I wonder will there ever be a "we"
free to live, free to be?
Because if you just let me go,
What will you learn? How will you know?
I thought you loved me, thought you cared.
But reality tells me you'll never be there.
I always say how close we are
but lately you seem so distant, so far.
This confusion poisons me, can't you see?
It seems I'm someone else, not me.
It's the ambivalent games that you play
that have been making me feel this way.
I don't know what to say or do,
because for advice, I always turned to you
and you're not there now to guide me straight.
You won't let me enter through your gates.
And since I am sent astray
I think, "I don't need you anyway!"
Now that's a lie, as we both know
because it pains me to see you go.
It's always the times you love that never last
and the ones you hate don't seem to ever pass.
Even though I'm really scared,
I try not to show you how much I care.
I should have told you, things might have changed.
But instead we're apart and feeling estranged.
As I feel the tears roll down my face,
I dry my wet eyes in disgrace.


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