DELIVERANCE
Halo
Surrounding me
Broken wings
Breaking me
Fallen Angel
From the sky
Here on Earth
You make me die
As soon as I am born
You impale me with your thorn
Save me, I'm lost
I never paid the price
at your cost
Walking through the rain
I'm lost in you
in your pain
I'm confused
So its makes me insane
Blanket me please
Take my disease
BETRAYAL OF THE FLOWERS
Hello tree
Please burn for me
I compare you to my misery
Nothing will make them see
Crawling among the orchids
I fall in the dirt
Stricken wet by the rain
that illuminates my heart
I turn around bleeding
and your gone
The black sunlight
covered you with shadows
And so
Your cruelty died
Sin became refined
And you drowned that day
in the sky, in your hell
Damned by the clouds
Tearing your flesh into shrouds
The rain now falls as blood
And all Im left with
is a crimson rose bud
Smothered with your agony
HEART ABORTION
Feelings are void
My heart is now numb
You ran me over
while running away
I'll hate you forever
Yet I love you this day
Confusion I fear
Whenever your near
Love you do I not
Your words I do not hear
I cant take this
You broke my heart
I wish Id have known this
For this Id not start
What is love?
Tell me
Love is nothing
Nothing I'll see
Love is your hatred
Laughing at me
ABOLISHED CHAMBER
Infected
I scratch at the surface I hate
hoping to make it go away
But has it?
No
I shoot myself, little virus
to see if you'll burn
You haven't left me yet
My heart is still bleeding
Mercilessly on the floor
where you gouged it from my chest
Napalm inferiority
I'll kill you soon virus
Your heaven is gone
Just like your life
Kill yourself precious
but by all means,
please use my knife
Goodbye virus
Carved from my little wound
My precious integrity
MY MORBID LOVE PREYED UPON THEM
The blood I take from you is violence
How sweet your nector is
Die now my precious bride
and return to me a creature
My dark damsel
We'll stalk them together
and forever take pleasure
in the never ending screams
As we prey on the living
since we are the dead
This new orgasm
of blood and delegance
Love in misery
My precious death angel
You'll never know a taste sweeter
than that of life's blood
A VAMPIRE DESIRE
My illusion of blood
of dreams and of death
I'll kill you now
and enjoy your last breath
Carry me now and take me away
and forever blood I shall crave
Created (damned) I was this day
Take the tears from my veins and
wipe the blood from my eyes
I'm a monster now
I'll never be free
Damn the mortal nighttime that blankets me
Shadows are my exsistence
TEAR ME DOWN
Broken
Bleeding
I am
Decaying
Tear off my wings
Shatter my subtle dreams
Have you set fire to my heart yet?
No
You torch my sleepless reality instead
This ruin
of so many things before
left me dead again
In life, I am left dead
SLOW INSANITY
Shaking quietly
I fall to the floor
My compassion is gone
I dont need it anymore
I thought I knew to love
but I didnt
because things went from push to shove
I stopped caring
Stopped giving a shit
Is it the medication talking,
or am I a coldhearted bitch?
The voices are speaking again
Telling me not to let you in
Why wont they leave me alone?
CHASING THE DRAGON
Your my opiate
My barbituate
Going insane
I hate this shit
I cant take anymore of you
Overdosed on what you made me
Swallowing harder
Snorting it faster
Your lust is my hallucination
that I cannot master
Take another line
Inject in me deep
Your the drug that hates loving me
You are my sheep
So kill my integrity and mimic my dreams
For these four walls around me
are laced by my screams
RETSNOM
Authors Note--the title is
"monster" spelled backwards
She cried outside herself
into the walls of her prison
wondering when the flame will die
when the knife will be pulled from her back
She lives isolated from her fear
No one will come near
No one will ever hear
She's scarred, they say
A monster
Lost in her pain, her scars wont heal
She'll feed the anger, in her demise
Killing herself, she'll stop the lies
Haunting many, hating few
She'll show them the life that she lived
through her eyes
MORBIDIA
Damsel Maiden in my Distress
Find me now among the rest
Hands tied down to the barren track
Fathom my love laced haunting in black
My burial gown I was born in
Mourning my life's despair
Truth unfold I sold in
My love, she isnt there
I put the rope around my neck
and hang from this dead tree so sweet
This suicide is my blasphemy
for death I cannot cheat |
TO YOU IN DESTRUCTION (PHASE ONE)
Hatred
Entombed
Fear
Evoked
My tears for you
Choked
My heart is decaying
Memories of you
Make me numb
I don't feel anything
Emotionless
Now I am
Don't you care?
Escalating
Anger
Sleepless nightmares
I'm awake now
But you still haunt me
Broken
Nothing
Shameless in my misery
TO YOU IN DESTRUCTION (PHASE TWO)
Falling
Blood filled coffin
Ripped me open
Injected into my soul
Voidless; Numb
A shallow hole
Killing you, I can't let go
I fucked away the pain
Killing you again
Fucking you was real
I don't want to kill you
Don't want to fuck you
I don't want to love you
I just want to break you
Make you self-destruct
Banish your morality
And tear your heart up
ETERNAL AEORTA
I am rejection
I am sorrow
I am your drug
I hate tomorrow
I bring no passion
I shed your tears
A wretched infidelity
Soothe all my fears
It's a February Genocide
Genocide is another word for misery
My finger's on the trigger
and your standing in my way
This is my erotic
My Erotic Valentine's Day
MY MAIDEN RETURN
Tie me down in my burial gown
Keep me in my flesh
Burden my heart more drown
Blanket me in my misery dress
Love me, hate me, do what you will
This fantasy undone, you cannot kill
Wrap these chains around my wounded wrists
Take this thorn halo from my head
and remove your staff from my side
Don't pronounce me dead just yet
Her figure, life, she followed me
though, death, again we never met
Haunting me quietly
this poltergeist
I do not fear her
Laden in my coffin endowed
Shadow's blood follows her now
This life take I shall
Death in vain
this love broke slain
Heart Broken
Inside of her
MY SERENITY
Misery
Am I?
I am not
She wraps her hands around my throat
Is she coveting me?
None the less, I do not choke
Sorrow
Do I follow you?
You accompany misery well
Your sickness does not fail
to blanket my insecurities
And soothe away my incompedence
I drown my dreams in tears
of my morbid innocence
of my nothing
Misery
Not I; Sorrow
I do not follow
Void; Yes I am
Numbness making me hallow
CRUCIFIED ON STAINED GLASS
Live Funeral in your baptism
Life in liquid I break myself
Exsistence I've never known
My heart you've never broken
A breath I've never taken
A soul was never given to me
Nor a name, a face, or skin
I've never known what it's like to be alive
This clinical death from the womb
2 seconds to breathe
and I never took a breath
Take this heart you never gave me
and let someone else enjoy it
Let them enjoy the misery
the sadness
Let them know their baptism
and know life
Know meaning; know spite
Know happiness, enjoy freedom
Give them everything
Everything you never let me have
Everything you never gave me
Let them have my death
Give them my all
Even my last breath
A THOUSAND DEAD ROSES
Whisper them
Through forest echoes
Drown your heart in restitution
Wish the life you had away
Make her known
as Death's decay
Pleasure your insanity
in orgasmic dementia
Crawl while weeping
into your satin laced coffin
Find your grave in a circle of rest
Take your lust into her
Destroy your own morality
to save her immortality
Make your spirit into hers
Covet your desires
Death has given you this
DEATH PROCESS
Torn apart like shattered wings
Finding nothing but broken things
Empty and decaying, just like the dead
Coffin cased, a hole in your head
Nervous system shut down
Your heart stops beating
as Death creeps in
Your blood stops flowing
Your face no longer glowing
Your dead now
How does it feel in Hell?
I hope you pay the price
for all the pain you've caused
to the people you loved
MESSAGE IN A BOTTLE
I like it when you hate me
When I'm alone, you hate me
These pills I take everyday
Make it hard for me to talk to myself
These pills I take everyday
Make loving you easier
Even if you hate me
I love you all the same
They keep me awake at night
Never taming me, they make me insane
They make me restless
The pill I take everyday is you
Killing my depression
Taming the shrew
Your my every breath, your my pain
The pain is killing me
MICHEAL
I tore away
Everything you were to me
I had to let go
Everything you were to me
Through tears
Everything you were to me
made me numb
You'll never know
Everything you were to me
In two years (I loved you)
You became everything to me
And now that we are nothing
Nothing you are to me
End this waking dream
Everything you were to me
became nothing
Nothing that you are to me now |