SHADOW OF NIGHTFALL Salvation of worlds lost unto me Oh god my blood the only thing to set me free A cut a drive to live to die Why is it each night i stare and cry As emotions of useless conditions course through my mind My pain i myself help bind Hold me down make it quick No knife No gun smash my face with the brick I want to feel the pain to feel my life fade To taste the missery i myself made I want to suffer torture me to your will In the end myself i will kill Return to me now my angel and do not leave my side Do not touch me you never care when i cried Your words as fake as my love i spilled Into my soul you so viciously drilled As if that were not enough you tore my heart from my chest Still beating let it slow to a rest Death...a thoguht crossing my mind from such a young age Feeling as if im trpped and this world is my cage stuck i never ventured out into this world so pure in hate i tried once to deny my fate As if i was nor born to die i lied to fool myself into believing reality fake Never knowing that would be the main source that made my soul break I did it unto myself my hate died as did my love After this never look above Im gone smile at what i have become Inside will your feelings aswell turn numb Maybe you could walk a day in these worn out shoes And ask yourself what do you choose Life or death Wishing for your last breath This is it im finished my heart is slowing to its stop Next you may watch as my body drops..... FEELINGS OF THE SOULLESS Strange to feel this passion coursing through veins that until time passed seemed dead As emotionless grains of solitude begin coursing through my head Lips saying love and actions of despise The mere thought bringing through a blood pressure rise Talk of fears a look in demise my soul stranded I find my fate Seeming your false words were only the bait how could I be so stupid as to walk into your soulless trap Falling so hard I can feel my inside's snap Twisted in pain as if turned into a specter of pain Bleeding so hard I myself has become the rain Falling so easy and the struggle to regain Seeming to be stuck amongst the decay crying for what remains Trying with all my might to stand back on my own two feet Seeing as a forecast my very defeat How a single person can destroy my entire being from the inside out How badly I cry how badly I bleed how badly I scream and shout Was it a game to you, was everything you said only a tease Your game so vicious making my beating heart freeze A lie so vicious a lie so pure Tricking my very being into believing this evil as real I gave you my all little knowing I got nothing in return Blind to the fact that when you got it all your emotions would turn Now missing do you see yourself as the angel I called you every day When night falls my love do you remember the words I use to say Do you even see that im gone do you cry for me into the night Have you forgotten that you were my only life’s light Alone..You promised to never leave me as you did Feeling tricked feeling stupid feeling numb I seem to be a little kid I fell so easy for your lie too desperate for a home Oh god if I would have known but let peace now course for it is peace I have found As my body is lowered into the ground and six feet under maybe your thought will fade In one single action I have ruined all we have made... LOOK RIGHT THROUGH ME Tested, molested defiled and raped my soul no longer will i drape Broken shards of a helpless cry no longer holding will to deny What hast become of me where hast my life gone Found dead, early monday dawn Crys of fake friends empty tears of grief all to improve the sight Burning low i fall far from that saving light Ghost of pale dead stalking my every breath Found now my realization of death Holding on to lost hopes and dreams Going deff to my own screams Scraping walls my nails rip from flesh Dripping my blood the smell so fresh Insighted pain now focused into a thought Seeing all my mistakes hast brought Slowling to my fault, stumble to the ground tears of hateful demise my broken spirit bound Let my painful sonata feed the ear of the willing heart Fading faster now my mind is torn apart whisper my name and i shall cut in return cannibles of flesh my demons age since born Hold me close and i shall carry you afar where my spirits and my pain abound shalt be found thats where they are Beat me into the bloody pulp i so doughst long for the feel Let me know my life is real This must be a dream my reality a lie, my memories all fake HOW MUCH MORE can i fucking take abound to a feind pain my only friend to hold dear so here i will lay and stay, till my reborn dawn is clear.... THOUGHTS OF THE ALONE What if i am truely alone Finding myself afraid to see That every one i have ever known They will never truely be And in times of deep sorrow am i left to die a faded memory A grave of forgotten faces, a doll with a distorted face Will anyone even truely know me Will i ever find my rightful place I try and fill my whole with illusions of faded dreams I try to stop the bleeding the floor a graceful red I try and muffle my past screams I find death, as if death is only a mention of dead And if you could look right through the cracks would you find yourself or would you find hollow dust If you could hunt me down and follow my tracks Would it be a choice or must If you found me helpless with the blade to my wrist Could you live in this dillusion If the blood now covered my fist Would it to you be an illusion When days come to night i cant see my reflection the hollow mask a hint of what i want to be Im afraid to speak to hear your reaction Im afraid to be me And i dont know how to make things right i only now how to ruin my hopes and spread my tears I only want to hear you laugh tonight I only want to get rid of my fears Im not sure where to look, or how to keep you by my side I do not know how to make you happy, how to make you smile I know i am a child, i only know how to hide i only know self denial And if you could would you forgive me for all my mistakes Can you hold me one last time I will do what ever it takes I will get rid of all thats mine You really are all i have, all i want i will find a way to show you my feelings are true i dont mean to be so blunt but all i want is you....
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